Saturday, July 17, 2010

Saturday fun...

We had a great day today...first time we have been able to focus on just being a family and having fun in awhile! We slept in this morning and that in itself was a blessing. With a slow start to the day we didn't let that stop us from having fun...we went to the mall and picked out phone cases...went to chili's, where they proceeded to embarrass Bre with singing, hee hee hee...went to Rue 21, where I was completely shocked. Kenny actually went in to the store and watched as Bre went from rack to rack...very patiently he held her picked out items and let her continue to shop. I have to say he won the trophy for Best dad today. It meant a lot to Bre and a whole lot to me. He does not like to do these kinds of things but he made a huge effort today. Love that we were able to spend the day making our baby happy. After coming home and resting for a bit, Bre decided she wanted me to take her to practice driving....so we loaded up and went. I have to say I think she did very well. As soon as she calms down a bit (nerves) she will make a good driver. I do however think we will make a few more practice runs before we let loose on the open road.
The weekend party continues on for Bre...Rachel just arrived and is spending the night with her. You know what that means, lots of giggling and being silly into the wee hours! I guess it's a good thing we were able to sleep in this morning, wink.

Friday, July 16, 2010

birthdays and arrivals...

Monday is a huge day in our house! Breanna will be 15! Hard to believe we are here...high school, boyfriends, driving, football games, driving, and all the other stuff that goes along with it. The celebrating officially kicked of yesterday with her big present (thanks to Wesley, who took her to pick it up). This weekend we will have a traditional lunch out with singing and embarrassment involved, Kenny also wants to take her and let her pick out a case for her new phone. Monday will be mother-daughter day with a lunch out, shopping and going to get her learner's permit! Can't believe I will be in the passenger seat soon, lol. Then we will have birthday cake and ice cream at home Monday night. I am sure we will be joined by Wesley and probably Rachel. More singing will be involved! I am also totally in love with this little guy...meet Stephen Michael. Isn't he just the cutest? Well his dad is pretty cute too. For those of you wondering, he is my first grandchild. I don't talk about the past and have been very private about it. It was a very painful time but it is time to put the pain in the past where it belongs and celebrate. I am thrilled with his arrival. This new little guy has brought new meaning to the word faith. This new little guy leaves me in awe. This new little guy is completely and utterly loved from afar. I am so happy for Josh and Vanessa.
I am so thankful for family and the life I have now.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

thankful Thursday...

This week I have so much to be thankful for and I don't want to let the week get away from me.
...Stephen Michael...a precious new life...
...spending time with family over the holiday weekend...
...Kenny turned the big 50...
...time to myself to think a little...
...Breanna...she is my special gift...
Although I have much to be grateful for, I also have some regrets. I am trying to learn how to live with them. It is sometimes almost harder then I can bare. Life sometimes is hard, I think the hardest thing for me is accepting the fact that I am human. That I have to learn as I go, that I haven't always made the right choices. I know for myself I had a very difficult youth. Things that happened then have had long reaching consequences, and it is very hard to live with at times. I live with some very deep wounds. Things I wish I could change, but there is no changing the past. I have to find comfort in the fact that I have learned as I have grown older. When I knew better, I did better.
With all that being said I am so thankful for the life I have now and the people that are in my life. I am truly blessed to have the husband and daughter I do, the extended family I have and my friends who are so very important to me.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

thoughts...(warning!)

Thoughts...thoughts keep running through my head and I can't turn them off. I am trying to find my happy place. Don't get me wrong, I have a very happy life, but I didn't come from that and sometimes it just gets the best of me. I do however believe that happiness is a choice and I choose to be a happy person. I have so many blessings. I have faith that the road I came from led me to the road I am on now. Material things come and go, age creeps upon us, and life evolves. Life is a school. Sometimes we fail and sometimes we succeed. I have to believe that even though we might have made wrong choices, we have the possibility to turn it around. I hope that one day these heartbreaks will be healed. I hope that one day love will overcome the hurts of the past. I hope that one day the holes in my heart will be filled. Right now I have to accept the consequences of my choices. Right now I have to just live with faith. Faith, that is a word I had almost given up on. But faith is what will heal.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

thankful Thursday...

I know I missed one...I guess that was bound to happen eventually...but I will pick up and start anew! I haven't done very well with my scrappin goal, but I will be posting some stuff soon. We have just been really busy with summer and working and well, life. Since I missed last week I think I will post ten things, wink.

...afternoon thundershowers...
...new days...
...washer and dryer...
...my Pineapple Orchid candle from Bath and Body Works...
...long talks with Kenny...
...hair dye...
...flip flops...
...Saturday afternoon movie...
...berry-limeade...
...lazy Sunday mornings...

I have been doing some thinking lately. Could you smell the smoke? I am so thankful for my family. Kenny and I have faced some very challenging things this year, fortunately we have each other lean on and get through the things life throws at you sometimes. Breanna is our joy in life, she is truly a gift from God and we thank him everyday. We are also very lucky to have our extended families. Love that my Mom and Bob took their first vacation ever, so glad they are embracing this new time in their lives. Praying for Kenny's Mom and Dad, they are facing some challenges too, but together we will pull through these things and be a stronger family in the end. Love my nephews and the young men they are. Their Mother would be so proud of them and the way they are standing together, I am definitely proud of them. They are strong young men and also gifts from God, I am very lucky to be their Aunt! I am truly blessed to have the family I do. It is the family I always wanted growing up.
My friends bring so much joy to my life. Each of them have their own special gifts, Stephanie has become more to me then just a BFF, she is family. She is someone I look to for inspiration, she is an amazing woman who is a phenomenal force. She is dedicated, loyal, and so caring for the people in her life. Nita has always been like a sister, and I am so happy that she is starting to find herself again. I hate watching friends and family go through difficulties, but I know she will be a stronger person in the end. I miss seeing Kristy, but sometimes life takes us in different directions, but she is someone I can pick right up where we left off. I am so excited that she will be welcoming a new baby this year. Can't wait to meet this new little life. Jennifer, someone I have been friends with now for 12 years, will be moving back to Ocala this year. I cannot wait for her to be back. I have missed her. I love that she is moving her family back and we will be able to spend time together.

I realize this has been a long post, that's what happens when I start thinking. I am also thankful that I have this blog to share my thoughts.